In denial

I think my firstborn baby is slowly reaching the beginning of puberty.

I can't believe it. It's too fast! Wasn't she this adorable cute toddler girl not too long ago?

My heart is not ready. I do wish I could turn back the time to enjoy my girls more when they were so little and cute. Sigh!

Half a million dollars!

Recently, I did a rough calculation of how much money I could've earned in the last ten years. Not counting performance bonuses, CONNECT plan bonuses and whatnots, I could have made at least half a million dollars in ten years. That is a lot of money! Well, anything is a lot compared to earning zero dollars i guess! 

And so I have been telling Hubby and kids and even my parents that I gave up so much money to just stay home with the kids. My Pa said not everything can be measured by money. True. That's precisely why I stayed home. But many times I wonder whether it mattered, whether it made any difference to the family. If I had continued working, life would've been more comfortable materially. Was my staying home worth it? I really wondered often. 

Then today, E told me about her conversation with her classmate. Her friend envied her because E got to help me crack and cook eggs for dinner sometimes. She told E that she was very lucky and blessed that I am home with her, to be there for her, cook for and with her. Her friend is usually home alone without her parents as both parents worked, and she was the only child. Oh my.

I'm glad that at least E felt that she was very lucky and blessed too. Am thankful for this encouragement.