Contradiction?

If Jesus is indeed God, and He says He loves me so much as to die for my sins, so that I may live in eternity with Him in heaven, but yet I find it hard to accept His love, either I think He's lying (which contradicts His holiness, godliness, perfectness and character), or I'm wrong about Him being the real God. 

I don't think I'm wrong about Him being the real God. 

So if I don't think God is a liar, His claims of love must be true. My sins must be real. And bad enough as He says. And His promise of redemption must be trustworthy. 

So if one can't accept His claims and yet still think He is God and not lying, therein lies a conundrum. A contradiction in the mind and heart. 

So take it or leave it. Jesus loves you. Jesus loves me. That's it.